Dear Adoptive Parents Who Made Certain Commitments to Their Child’s Birth Mother,
Dear Adoptive Parents Who Made Certain Commitments to Their Child’s Birth Mother, I am writing to you today with urgency. This urgency beckons you to be willing to hear my words with vulnerability and awareness. My heart is heavy today for a particular woman who placed her child for adoption. She represents EVERY…
Read MoreThe Letter, Fate and a New Beginning – Final Chapter 10
The Letter, Fate and a New Beginning – Final Chapter 10 After I placed my son for adoption, I asked my social worker if I could write him a letter so that when he was older he would know I loved him dearly and placed him out of love. We didn’t have printers in our…
Read MoreC-Sections, Hospital Stays, and a 2 year old Little Angel – Chapter 9
C-Sections, Hospital Stays, and a 2 Year Old Little Angel I was 9 months pregnant and ready to have my child in just a few more weeks. I cried every day upon waking and again my tears would put me to sleep at night. As my stomach grew bigger and bigger, so did the…
Read MoreFood Shopping, Sweet 16 and C-Sections – Chapter 8
Adjusting to the Convent: Food Shopping, Sweet 16 and C-Section. Chapter 8 The days were exceedingly long. Week after week, I would sit before the social worker with a confident smirk insisting that I would be able to find a good job and an apartment to raise my child in as a single mom.…
Read MoreBehind the Scenes- The Breakdown, More Hideaways, and Loneliness – Chapter 7
Behind the Scenes- The Breakdown, More Hideaways, and Loneliness I hopped off the short bus ready to race inside my house before anyone could see me or my fat pregnant belly. I had gotten really good at the race inside the house after school each day. I had it down to mere seconds despite…
Read MoreRobberies, Jail and Cancellations – Chapter 6
Robberies, Jail, and Cancellations I can still hear the revving of the moped engine that popped down Ocean Avenue on that night, in early February. I was 5 months pregnant, my wedding was in about a week and life seemed to have settled into a routine. I had been waiting for hours.…
Read MoreWedding invitations, Judges and White Castle Cheeseburgers – Chapter 5
Wedding invitations, Judges and White Castle Cheeseburgers The decision was made. He was 17 and I was 15 and we were young, dumb and about to get married. In order to get married at 15 one needs to go before a judge and seek his permission. So we did, I remember the furlong…
Read MoreAccusations, Church and State – Chapter 4
Accusations, Church and State A funny thing happened when I got serious about keeping my child. People became worried and concerned. I have no idea what else they thought was going to happen but as I got bigger their worries increased too. I was sober for the first time in a few years and…
Read MoreHumility, School, and Phil Donahue – Chapter 3
Humility, School, and Phil Donahue. Eventually, Berner High School decided it was in everyone’s best interest if I disappeared for a while. I was enrolled in a BOCES type school where they had classes for pregnant women and some even brought their baby with them to school so they could still…
Read MorePooh Bear, Paint and Promises – Chapter 2
Regardless of the number of years that pass some memories linger crystal clear. Pooh Bear, Paint, and Promises. I was 15 years old and in the dining room of our home in Massapequa, NY when I got the news. The dining room walls were lined with mirrors. I can still see my reflection in them…
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