Food Shopping, Sweet 16 and C-Sections  – Chapter 8

Adjusting to the Convent:  Food Shopping, Sweet 16 and C-Section.  Chapter 8   The days were exceedingly long. Week after week, I would sit before the social worker with a confident smirk insisting that I would be able to find a good job and an apartment to raise my child in as a single mom.…

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Robberies, Jail  and Cancellations  – Chapter 6

Robberies, Jail, and Cancellations     I can still hear the revving of the moped engine that popped down Ocean Avenue on that night, in early February.   I was 5 months pregnant, my wedding was in about a week and life seemed to have settled into a routine.   I had been waiting for hours.…

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Accusations, Church and State – Chapter 4

Accusations, Church and State    A funny thing happened when I got serious about keeping my child. People became worried and concerned. I have no idea what else they thought was going to happen but as I got bigger their worries increased too.   I was sober for the first time in a few years and…

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Humility, School, and Phil Donahue – Chapter 3

Humility, School, and Phil Donahue.        Eventually, Berner High School decided it was in everyone’s best interest if I disappeared for a while.   I was enrolled in a BOCES type school where they had classes for pregnant women and some even brought their baby with them to school so they could still…

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Pooh Bear, Paint and Promises – Chapter 2

Regardless of the number of years that pass some memories linger crystal clear. Pooh Bear, Paint, and Promises. I was 15 years old and in the dining room of our home in Massapequa, NY when I got the news. The dining room walls were lined with mirrors.  I can still see my reflection in them…

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Rock Concerts, Bikinis, and Teen Spirit – Chapter 1

I guess if there was an actual beginning to my adoption story this would have been it. Rock Concerts, Bikinis, and Teen Spirit. I was 15 and I wore black and white zebra-striped spandex pants and a black leather shirt. Dio was at Nassau Coliseum on Long Island NY and I was excited. It was…

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Birth Fathers and Father’s Day

Father’s Day   I think just as Mothers Day can be a difficult day to deal with for birth mothers, Fathers Day can be a difficult day for birth fathers too.    Most men are pretty good at hiding their emotions, thoughts, and feelings around things that didn’t work out quite as planned. Parenting is…

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It’s my Birthday! 

It’s my Birthday!    Another year has passed and with it comes the realization that my birthday is also my children’s birthday and my mother’s birthday and hers before her and yadda yadda yadda. We are all here because of each other. Life is an amazing thing.  As you reflect on your own life and…

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